MK Week 13- Peace Of Mind
Christmas is my Favorite Holiday. All the Colors, Lights, Food, Abundance, Peace, and Goodwill towards All Manners of Humans. It is a Season of Loving, and Giving, no matter our Individual Beliefs.
This is Daybreak looking out of my kitchen, the view flowing through into my Peaceful Zone outside. I really enjoy decorating in this manner, and you will not ever find a Santa Claus one, in any of this Marvelous Creation.
In celebrating the Real Reason for the Season, I AM would like to share with you a very Integral story of Persistence throughout her life…… which remains to this day, as you will soon discover.
I AM but a very young, small, and innocent 5 years old. I believe everything my parents, and 3 older siblings tell me. I am curious, and filled with wonder and amazement in all things. It seems as though everyone is in a hustle and bustle lately, preparing for the return of a jolly, round bellied man in a red suit, who rides in a sleigh packed full of toys, which is pulled by 8 tiny reindeer. Wait a minute… reindeer don’t have the wings to fly. I want to know what this Santa Claus business is all about. The house is quiet, and dark, except for the warm glow of the embers in the fireplace, and the lights on the Christmas tree, and on the porch rails outside. I am awake in the middle of the night. I hear noises on the roof outside of my bedroom window. I sneak outside, onto the deck. I see this red suited figure climbing down from the roof, he turns to look at me. It is my Father….
I AM but 7 years old now. It is Christmas morning. The dawn is just breaking and excitement fills the air. The fire is still warm and glowing from the night before. My siblings and I are being lined up against the wall in our living room. My parents are standing in front of us. Before we can open presents, we must listen to what they are both about to impart to us. This is different from years past. There is something wrong here. I am scared….
My parents proceed to tell us that their marriage is dissolving, and that my Father is going to very quickly make a permanent move to Hawaii, without my Mom, or any of us 4 kids…. but that we will be able to visit him every summer. In my young mind, we just got abandoned, and left behind. Immediately, My heart is Shattered and My Spirit is Broken….. So, I’ll just hang out here in the backyard until She comes back to rescue me…
As a very young girl, I have been taught how to live off the land, by gardening, and raising chickens, for meat and eggs. My Father is a Geology Professor, and we have all travelled, as a family, during the summer for 6 weeks at a time, in the back of an old pickup truck, all over the Western United States, so my Father could drill for, take, and measure core samples from the Earth. We have been to a ranch in Mexico, where an old woman was making goat cheese, and we have been to the Magnificent Pyramids there as well. I’ll never forget these experiences, and vividly remember the early years of my Father bouncing me on his knee…..
What REALLY just happened here? I don’t understand….. Why? Why would you leave us?
Jump Forward 43 years, and the evidence of Persistence is Abundant in my life. I now understand the What, and the Why. It is only after my Mom’s passing about 7 years back, that my eldest sister revealed to me the Truth of the Why’s involved in that fateful day. He wanted to take all of us with him, but my Mom refused to go…..
Wow! I now realize that after a lifetime of resenting my Father for his decision to move forward with his own life, that my life has NOT all been wasted time, it has merely been a preparation for this Incredible day! I’ve had to go back, a few times, and forgive, and clear this channel again. Over the next few months and years, I promise to work hard to write to you about my life long struggle of climbing out of this Deep Rut….
It is almost daybreak of Christmas Eve morning. I AM has become my very best friend. For her sake, quitting is not an Option. I choose to give her Prosperity. I AM the Hero in my own life. I AM Persistent, and I AM is manifesting my DMP. One of my DMP Goals, the one that is linked to Yellow, and gives me tidings of Great Joy, is to publish my book before Christmas 2025…. Here we are, publishing, in this moment, in Living Color!
Ironically, regardless of completion year, ALL of my DMP Goals have the dates of 12/25, Christmas Day…..
Wow! I really AM Golden!!! I AM One of the Chosen Few!!!
So…. I’ve now put on my Winged Shoes, and I AM Reclaiming My Life, Courageously!!!
One of my Gifts to myself…
During this Season of Giving, I Give to ALL of you, with Great Joy, Aliveness, and Inspiration….
The timeless Gift of My Soul… I AM really cool Internally….
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!