MK Week 14- Homeward Bound

                MY TRUE ELEMENT                 

 

This Holiday Week here in the Masterkeys, we were asked to Reflect Back,  Challenge Ourselves, and really Focus on Harmony. As many of you who read my Blog from last week know, I already went back, to squash those Old, Habitual Resentments. I had to, for my own Peace of Mind. The Major Damage that has been done throughout my life had to STOP!  In clearing this channel. yet again, I have discovered that Forgiveness is like struggling to sit still, or tweaking my DMP… a Process, an Evolution of Thought, which is really all there is, and A Real Challenge. 

  In seeking to have Harmony in ALL things,  I have sat, I have cried, I have laughed hysterically at myself and with others, I have written, I have watched movies (which I haven’t done in a couple of years now), I have read others’ Blogs for hours, I have put myself in pairs of shoes that are not my own, and I have deliberately turned my head and walked away from situations in which I do not belong. Now, I do not mind being uncomfortable for a bit, in fact I welcome some situations, as I know that they help me to Grow in my Journey here. But when interference in what I’m learning starts to kick in, enough is enough….. I simply do not allow it anymore. This is Fascinating to me, to say the least….. 

So… this last week, I challenged myself, along with Sixhunnadolla,  

to, within 5 days, earn the money required to reserve a spot in the Kauai retreat. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!! 🙂

YES!! I AM More than Enough! I was made 1st class, BY 1st class, FOR 1st class, and I GO 1st class, because I DO a 1st class Job, in rendering Service. I strive for Excellency in ALL that I do. I AM Whole, Perfect, Strong, Powerful, Loving, Harmonious, and Happy! 

 Waikiki Beach               Kauai 

I’d like to share a little background here, so you will understand why this Retreat is so very important to me:

 

          I AM but 7-9 years old, and my Father has left our beautiful home here in North Dallas, and has moved to Hawaii. My older siblings and I start to go visit him during the summers. We travel to all of the different islands, exploring, learning, seeing, doing, and FEELING so many different, wonderful things. I feel safe, secure, and important after all. 🙂

         I AM 10.  My Mom has sold our childhood home, has a new husband, and we now live just outside of Austin.  There is sorrow and strife within the household. My mom has been locked in her room for months. We know she is in there, but are not allowed to see her. My stepfather is very mean, belittling, controlling, and acts out in inappropriate ways. My two older sisters have left the home, and there is just my brother and I left. I am scared, and do not want to be here. 

         I AM 12.  I have grown up to be a Beautiful young lady!  It has been a really tough couple of years, and my brother, being 2 years older, is allowed to hang with his friends, but I am not. I really don’t want to be here, now.   I have become fiercely independent, and very stubborn. I will not listen to any voice of reason. One fateful night, during a fight with my Mom, I am taken to the airport, and put on a plane… I am being sent to Hawaii to go live with my Father…

        I AM 13.  I am happy, and secure within myself, but not within the household. There is a lot of resentment that has built up over the years, and I still will not listen to any voice of reason. I must go, to be free, and learn the only way that I am able… through trial and error. Waikiki and Diamond Head become my home for the next 3 years……

 

    I Persist until I Succeed.                                                                                                                                          I Persist.   I Win.            

 

         Which brings me to the movies…. I chose to watch October Sky. I could so totally relate to all of the scenarios.  I cried many, many times, and even had to watch it at two separate times. The negative, belittling, condemning, actions of the father are really heartbreaking, but through it all, Homer managed to Persist, and never lost sight of his Dream of launching a rocket into space. He had a Burning Desire to make that million in one chance a Reality.  He had the bravery, and courage to ask his classmates to help him succeed.  Together, they developed the plan of action necessary to see the goal through to completion. Through Perseverance, Confidence, and Practice, they gained the interest, and support of the community. They succeed. A publisher approaches. Everyone is Stoked. Amid some harsh persecution,  going to jail, and the family tragedy of the fathers ego, and subsequent injury, and the mothers resentment towards the father, Homer remained Inspired. When the injury occurred, Homer was forced to make some very grown up decisions, sacrificing his dream for his Mom, and older brother, while his father was unable to return to work in the mines, until his science teacher tells him to Follow His Purpose! Not anyone else’s.  When Homer decides to not work in the mines anymore, but follow his dream instead, the father becomes very resentful, and hateful, they argue, and Homer says he’ll leave forever.  Homer goes on to win the science fair, gain scholarships for all of his team, make amends with his dad,  and see his dream through to completion. 

  I also watched A Good Lie. Wow! I am grateful for my life, and this is enough movie watching for me this week. 😉

    Happy New Year To ALL!                                                                            

 

 

We are ALL Nature’s Greatest Miracle….

 

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Kendra Bordelon

I see your heros journey laid out in here.

    Brenda Buck

    Indeed….

MasterKeyNatalieZ

Free at last, thank God Almighty – Congratulations on the retreat! It is so amazing to me – I learn so much from your journey and the journeys of others to add to my understanding – thank you. I watched October Sky – I love the movie – Thank you for sharing your story – thank you for shining your light.

    Brenda Buck

    Oh, Absolutely, I am Free at last, thanks to MKMMA! Shining On, here…. 🙂

Kay Beam

Wow I finally made it to read one of your blogs. Glad I persisted in trying and so glad you have persevered. Who knows why some have so much courage – You are amazing!

    Brenda Buck

    Oh, Thank You! 🙂 I’m glad that you are here, too. Persistence is key, in everything!

Michael

What a heart wrenching journey. Humbled by your bravery and courage to share. Sending lots of love and blessings your way. This is your year to reach new heights of joy and happiness. WE GOT YOUR BACK!

    Brenda Buck

    Oh, Thank You, Michael! I could use some love and blessings, as I need to share, to get it all out of my system. These lessons that we do are bringing everything bubbling over the top! Haha! Courage and Taking Initiative (Boldness) are #1, and #2 on my list. Wow! Joy and Happiness? You got it! I am actually currently happier than I ever have been, regardless of circumstance… and Yes, this is my year to shine brightly. I can’t wait to go sit on that Kauai beach, and just BE, and Feel. Last time I was there was in 1979. 🙂 I, in turn, have yall’s backs as well. Thank You for your kind words.

raphaela rea

Brenda, what a journey from dejection, abuse and fear to “the sky is the limit! Looking at you, it seems you are the epitome of success and cheer. Thank you for your courage and love sharing your story and helping others find freedom!

    Brenda Buck

    Oh, Absolutely! My pleasure. 🙂 I was born to Encourage, and Inspire! My story is really so much deeper than what is expressed here, but that is where my autobiography comes in. If I can do it, anyone can do it….. Ironically, Courage is the virtue I’m looking for this week…. Ha! Your comment makes 4 dots for me today. 🙂 🙂 It’s Harvest time!

Juneta

Thank you for sharing that with us. Wishing you peace, joy and harmony. I watched the same two movies. Happy New and Joy in 2017.
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    Brenda Buck

    I Feel so much better sharing my stories here with all of you, as it has really helped me to set my dragons free… 🙂 Thank You for the well wishes.. A very Happy New Year to you!

Rick

Great post. I was glad to see how the movie made you reminisce about your childhood, but there was no bitterness. Superb linking to the small habits that determine persistence. So glad your money came through.
Happy New Year to you.

    Brenda Buck

    Oh, Thank You! There is no more bitterness, and are no more resentments. I am Free at last! Happy New Year to you, too! 🙂

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