Week 17HJ- Navigating Myself
The last couple of weeks here in the Masterkeys have been quite fascinating, to say the least. I have been led from one extreme to the other, and back again, continuously stretching my potential until it cried for mercy….
It is 4:30 am here in Texas, and my Self has just awoken me from a very sound slumber, Knowing that I have a 5am deadline to write to ya’ll. I am almost fully awake, and am now going to make the time to write, regardless of anything else that needs to be happening in this moment. It takes me 3-4 hours to write like I want to. Like I need to! I want to write so much, that I could spend hours on a deserted beach, or on a boulder in the middle of a mountain stream, doing just that.
Hmmm… yet another Burning desire, growing ever nearer in the distance… As the Eagles sang in one of their best songs…. “Somewhere out here on this horizon, I see the lights of a neon sign…” https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcKORAI9DCPV4WZTifJikTg
Navigating this 7 bridges road that I live on, quite literally, is dangerous and breathtaking all at the same time. Although I have learned to live by the compass, unfortunately most of society still runs on time. In my current working environments, this is a struggle. It seems as though there just aren’t enough hours in the day anymore. I am remaining eager, focused, grateful, courageous, bold, kind (for the most part), consistent, grounded, etc. through this whole process…. S-T-R-E-T-C-H!!! I am so very grateful for all of the lessons that we learn here, and for all of YOU, who actually understand the value and meaning that each of us bring to our very own lives. What an Incredible Journey we are all on….
My virtue to educe this week has been discipline, which I thought I had for the most part, and have done really well with lately. However, I have spent a lifetime of why’s, that haven’t really gotten me anywhere but around in the same old circles. Why did I procrastinate? Why did I sacrifice everything for others, not leaving any time for what I wanted, and needed to do? Why did I not see myself as but a grain of sand? Why did I see myself as Unimportant? Unseen? Invisible?
Too many why’s…. Stop It! LOL….
STEP 1. Back to Og, and Mandino….
In the silence, I can see, and feel my whole world shaking- with huge chunks of cement crumbling to the ground. Wow! I am not the same person that I was at all…
I chose to go across this scary bridge, and through this scary door-
And look what I found….
BAM! I found myself! Whole, Perfect, Strong, Powerful, Loving, Harmonious, and Happy!
I gave myself Permission to be Happy, and I gave myself Permission to rescue ME…. and here I AM. I have allowed my old self to slowly die, and I have ignited that Divine spark, and seriously fanned that flame. Although all of these exercise bridges have been very tough on me, shaking me to my very core, again and again, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THEM, and I have managed not to drown in the very deep waters of the abyss, and I have made it full circle in this Hero’s Journey. For I am a Mountain, NOT just a grain of sand!!!
I have become Transcendent…
Game On! 🙂